cause i can..

gettin restless
jus 2 days being home and im fidgetting..
rrrrr.

im hopeless,
i can never be a stayhome mama
erm of cus i dont intend ta hav kids so,
why bother.
it means i cant be a freelancer too,
ive zero motivation gettin down ta any piece of
artistic creation even if spare time is now @ my disposal..
eeeeek

im really hopeless aint i..

i went tanning earlier,
hoping ta get the bronze back
ive yet ta swim in a long time..
tt means hardcore laps and all that,
no ive done none in a loooong while..
mayb my affinity with the water is up

maybe.

aish,
my classmates were right.
life seems meaningless @ the moment
im refusing to succumb to bumming tis holz away
no i cannot go back to one
even if i was an awesome bummer, ha.

lets list down a few things i’d lik ta accomplish
- do some freelance designing n actually get paid for
- earn some money anyway
- volunteer for something
- diy my christmas cards
- do up a stunning website
- improve on my designs
- paint a mural for yolko’s wall
- tidy up the room
- backup all files in the laptop
- get myself a new cell phone
- finish grey’s anatomy and prison break!
- oh finally, to break THE news to my parents

ah, suddenly i see.
there is just too much i can invest my time in..
ive a plan..

i jus havent plan on starting. wheee~