tempted..

tonight is one of those times
i wanna go ahead with the heart
and bear all consequences come tomorrow
yet im holding back
cause this time it’s not so simple
other lives are at stake
other hearts might get hurt..

ive been selfish before
it’s not even like it does me much good
very temporary.. not very satisfying..
certainly nothing glamorous..
i hate myself when i struggle with such decisions
when it seems the double triple self of mine
takes over and it gets harder and harder to
find that very one true person im suppose to be..

who the fuck am i..