losing today

why is it so hard
so tormenting
my heart so full in beating
to feel all these want and unwanted

i lost sleep
i lost you.

how did the air miles and invisible forces seperate people
from the people they long
how can these that dont take on forms have impact on lives
how do they reach out and break bonds and hearts

hold it
actually they can
do bonds and feelings have forms? technically, no
now is that why. the two formless come together
they dont agree and in disagreement, they part

its unsettling
one that ive waited for a month to come
n when the union so near and dear
these evil menances appear
n they put me to the test
n i failed i couldnt put up with the distance

you
changed when u go away
make promises u dont try to keep
helpless in ur own right
dont say the need when most crucial
disappoint shut and turn me off

i
stil am cryin
not over us
not fighting
not well

but i stil can function
so people dont worry
its jus the unseen thats most scary
the unknown ocean depths to dive into
i dont mind never did
cause i thought i had a physical to cling onto
i thought ur hand was there for me
that u had come save me if i was drownin
but all u heard were the waves all u thought was
the island and yourself there safely

u killed me u know.